0 Autism!!!! (some accessories sold separately)

I don't think there is a day that goes by that I am not on the hunt for some product/thing/toy that's going to help soothe/entertain/engage/give sensory input to my kid.  Honestly, from the time we started this walk on Autism Avenue till just last night.   One thing is very clear.  IT'S FREAKING EXPENSIVE!!!!!

Last night on the facebook page for this blog the topic of Epsom Salt baths came up and I once again find myself "Googling" like a mofo autism and salt baths to research.   Between what people responded and what I found, yeah I'm going to give it a try.   Even if the kiddo doesn't like it, Hell, I'll use it.   Ten minutes in my own bathtub alone sounds likes like a spa treatment nowadays anyhow. :-)  I'm not sure what it will do other than help unwind the spinning top that is my son.  Maybe help him with his gut issues.  It's not to costly to give it a whirl.   But I couldn't help but sigh as I handed over my money today to the clerk at the pharmacy.  It's always some product that's going to make the difference.  And my boy is 8 and there's been A LOT of products.  Yep been burned to many times.

I get that if he was typical I would be spending left, right and center for him.  I understand that it would be for sports or lessons or whatnot.  It just seems we parents with ASD kids kind of get well, screwed.  Trust me, this is no pity party on my part.  But there is a huge difference in just complaining that you have to buy new cleats because their foot grew and me frantically searching for a weighted blanket that won't break my piggy bank cause I just want him to get more than four hours of sleep in a row in his own bed.  Yeah your kid is convinced those new sneakers will make him play better or feel cooler.  I"m just looking for stuff that's going to help my kid not feel like he's jumping out of his own skin.   You worry about your kid eating to much junk food, I just worry about mine eating period.  If that means he will only eat the name brand whatever, this mom will go with the generic something else for herself. 

The line that makes me twitch is when some very well meaning therapist or teacher says "Oh you should really get/pick up/buy.... for them".  Yeah that's great.  You treating?  Cause I listened many times to those suggestions and many of them are sitting here collecting dust.   So pardon me if you think I'm crazy not to run out and get it.  You know how many times by now I have run out and got it?  Yeah my good looks aren't getting any of these things for free. Juggle that with an overwhelming sense of guilt/confusion if I don't get it or if I do get it and it doesn't do anything.  Broke if I do, damned if I don't. 

Thank god fries are cheap.  :-)